My self esteem is lower than the budget for education. That’s how low it is.

I just thought of all of the things we were supposed to do together this year… all of the things we were supposed to stick with each other through… all of the things we are going to miss in each other’s lives… all of the things we have to do alone.

• Prom
• Graduation
• Therapy
• Spring break
• Summer
• Starting to college
• Hiking when it gets warmer

Fuck. I know I can do all of those things without you… but I really fucking don’t want to.

I love lurking everyone’s pictures on facebook the morning after prom. 

Guess who made a boutonnière for her date! This girl! :D I hope I don’t break it when I pin it on him. It’s okay if I do though, because I made a back up one. :P

In low spirits today. I have a feeling I’m not going to do so well on the ACT anymore. I got about 3 hours of sleep, and I just feel really down. Prom tonight. Yaaayy..

Do you think it is acceptable to wear a short dress to prom?

Because everyone has been telling me it is tacky to wear a short dress to prom. What do you guys think? Don’t let me look tacky at prom.

Fuck prom.

I don’t even want to go anymore. I’m going to have my stupid fucking period, so I’m going to be fat and feel like shit the whole time. And then I probably won’t even be able to do anything after prom because my parents will be like “If midnight is good enough for cinderella, it is good enough for you.” But it’s not like I was even fucking asked to prom. This will be my 3rd dance in which I was not asked but was pretty much told, “hey, we should go together.” Fuck that. Everyone else got asked a fucking cute way. He said he was planning on asking me a cute way, so he consulted a girl who told him to write “prom?” on a thong and give it to me. She told me about this and wrecked the surprise. But oh well. How romantic. Nothing beats getting a garment defiled with sharpie as a gift, and then feeling like an object of lust because you got mother fucking panties in exchange for being someone’s prom date. I should have told him it was okay to write “prom?” in gasoline on my driveway and light it on fire… It’s not like I could even wear the “prom panties” because I will have my goddamn period. Fuck. This. Shit. I would be so down to just sit at home with my cat and eat junk food, but I already dropped $20 on a stupid ticket. Anyone wanna buy a Cibola prom ticket? ha.